Realization

I thought I had it all together. I thought I had it all down pat. I had to, see. 'Coz I handle 2 online jobs. My friends told me I'm spreading myself too thin. But, no, I can do this. And I did. Yes, I had little time for personal stuff but I still have the weekend free. I also had lots of money. The 2 sources of income made sure of that. Everything was good. I was happy.

But everything started crumbling down when my stupid ISP failed me. No/minimal internet connection. Remember, in the world of online jobs - it's no work, no pay. ..Uh, no pay for 2 weeks... No pay... for 2 weeks... *shakes head* Sorry, I spaced out.

Anyway, amidst the craziness of those 2 weeks and the week thereafter, I had come to a realization. I cannot serve two masters at the same time. I will always compare one with the other - and favor one over the other.

I gave up my other online job. I gave up a part of my life. But I gained most of it back. More personal time, less stress, less wear and tear for my cpu (which sometimes breaks down due to overheating), and more opportunities to redevote my efforts to things I've set aside for the past month.

Hah! And I thought I was happy then.

I have every right to do this

Almost a month ago, the blasted internet service provider let me down - no or minimal internet connection. "There is a problem with the base tower." "Repairs are on-going". "Your complaint has been reported. Meanwhile, kindly monitor your connection from time to time". You hear that? I called up their hotline continuously and each time, their scripted dialogue is all I hear. This went on for almost 2 weeks. I did everything, believe me - calling their hotline, going to their office twice to report the problem, called up one of their technician to check my set-up, even made repairs/upgrade to my hardware. I had probably exhausted all means to make them aware of the urgency of my predicament - all to no avail. Why? Because it went on for almost 2 weeks!

I handle 2 online jobs. What the hell am I supposed to tell my bosses? "Um, I have minimal internet connection. Sorry, I can't work today. Ah... I don't know when the repair's going to be done. Uh... I hope I still have a job to return to when this is over."

Oh, well. Needless to say, I aged a lot during the whole ordeal. I'm seriously considering transferring to DSL but since it is owned by the same company that owned my current ISP, I am still not assured of a more reliable connection. So, I'm still stuck with SmartBro-ken. I hope they realize their advertised 384 kbps isn't what I'm getting - SmartBro, my speed barely reaches 300. So, this one's for you - You Suck, Big Time!!!